Well you remember when I posted a little bit ago about a guy that I thought was so amazing. Well after our 3rd date he completely dropped me. And then a week later he took me off of Facebook. Now, I don't judge my relationships off of whether i am friends with someone on Facebook, but when someone who doesn't really use their Facebook in the first place takes you off of theirs, you know they want to avoid you at all costs. So I broke for a couple of hours, but then I was okay.
Today I was thinking about the last month and I realized that there are other things in my life other than a guy. And from the start, there were a few things that kind of made me a little uncomfortable but I just brushed them off to the side and didn't worry about them, but now I see that they do matter. One of the things is that he would tell me things that weren't necessarily a lie, but he was definitely avoiding the truth. And there were some questions that he wouldn't answer, things that I found important to talk about.
So yeah. I am perfectly fine without him, and since then I have since found that God was preparing me because I didn't really have feelings for him, I was jut happy to have a guy who paid some attention to me. But I am worth more than that, I am not going to put my time and energy into someone who doesn't even want me around. I respect myself more than that.
Thursday, January 14, 2016
Saturday, January 2, 2016
Dear DG:
Dear Daynon:
Right now you are going through a tough time in your life. Your past is getting in the way of your future, and it is stressing you out. We were supposed to spend some time together today, but with all the stress you called it off. At first I was upset (I was really looking forward to spending the day with you, I have been excited about it since it first came up weeks ago), and then I was worried that I had done something to upset you. And here's the thing, when people are mad at me the NEVER tell me why. They just decide it would be better if they just ignore me - P.S. this just stresses me out and I don't get closure, nor can I apologize.
A little bit ago we were sitting on the couch talking. You said that I should plan on being around a while and I told you that as long as you want me around, I would stick around. I meant it. I want you to let me in on what is going on in your head. I want you to be able to trust me and let me help in any way that I can. Relationships are hard, especially at the beginning (or figuring out if you want to be in a relationship - like the stage we're in). The stakes aren't exactly in our favor either, with you living so far away and having a full time job and a part time job. But I am willing to try and make it work. Daynon, I think that you are amazing. The way you talk about your daughter and your hopes for the future astound me. The man that you are, and the things that you have gone through are evident in the way that you treat those around you.
So here it is, I care for you - a lot more than I expected to. I care about your well being, and the excitement that I feel when I get to spend time with you is like nothing I've experienced. I am genuinely excited to see you and get to know you better.
So far as I'm concerned, I want to keep trying to spend more time with you. I wish I could tell you all of this, but you won't hear about this, at least not now.
I hope this can become a thing.
Jasmine.
Right now you are going through a tough time in your life. Your past is getting in the way of your future, and it is stressing you out. We were supposed to spend some time together today, but with all the stress you called it off. At first I was upset (I was really looking forward to spending the day with you, I have been excited about it since it first came up weeks ago), and then I was worried that I had done something to upset you. And here's the thing, when people are mad at me the NEVER tell me why. They just decide it would be better if they just ignore me - P.S. this just stresses me out and I don't get closure, nor can I apologize.
A little bit ago we were sitting on the couch talking. You said that I should plan on being around a while and I told you that as long as you want me around, I would stick around. I meant it. I want you to let me in on what is going on in your head. I want you to be able to trust me and let me help in any way that I can. Relationships are hard, especially at the beginning (or figuring out if you want to be in a relationship - like the stage we're in). The stakes aren't exactly in our favor either, with you living so far away and having a full time job and a part time job. But I am willing to try and make it work. Daynon, I think that you are amazing. The way you talk about your daughter and your hopes for the future astound me. The man that you are, and the things that you have gone through are evident in the way that you treat those around you.
So here it is, I care for you - a lot more than I expected to. I care about your well being, and the excitement that I feel when I get to spend time with you is like nothing I've experienced. I am genuinely excited to see you and get to know you better.
So far as I'm concerned, I want to keep trying to spend more time with you. I wish I could tell you all of this, but you won't hear about this, at least not now.
I hope this can become a thing.
Jasmine.
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