Friend-zoned

I have been friend-zoned more times than I could tell you. A couple years ago, it hurt and I would have loved to be out of it. I think differently now about this touchy subject.

I have some roommates who have also been put into this situation as well, and they haven't been very happy about it. Not that it makes them any less great, or any less of a person. They just want to be in a relationship [who doesn't?] but it just isn't going the way that would be preferred. I also figured out that I also kinda sorta did this to someone as well, I don't feel bad about it, and I'm pretty sure that we have come to an understanding.

My thoughts are that just because you've been "put into" that zone doesn't mean that you can never get out of it with that person. Through personal experience I have learned that the best relationships don't come about by instant chemistry and a relationship right off the bat. They are built from trust, friendship and respect. All of which I value in ANY friendship.

This is the situation that I am in. I'm not saying that I want to be in a relationship with him, but I have met someone that I think I get along with really well and [I'm pretty sure at least] am starting to develop feelings for. I have to keep it hidden because we have talked about it and he is clearly interested in someone else, and I'm fine with that. Its still hard though, knowing that all the time you spend with someone - especially someone of the other gender - equates to them only seeing you as a good friend. And this is good, because everyone needs at least one good friend, and if something comes from it, even better - there is a foundation that is strong to be further built upon.

For these reasons, since I came down to school I have avoided saying that I 'like' people. Now the phrasing is more 'I'm interested in' or 'wanting to get to know better', simply because I think that I don't really know anyone well enough to 'like' them.

Sundays

For a long while now, years, I have had an interesting relationship with church. There was a time that I was about 15 when I absolutely disliked going to church. One day, a year or so later, I decided to listen. i really paid attention to what the speakers and teachers were saying. I started to read the Book of Mormon again. I had tried and failed many times. This time was different though. I actually did it. It took more than a year, but I did it and I was SO proud of myself. It took 3 years to actually finish it from cover to cover.

Since I consciously decided that I would try to be better, I have had times that I haven't really wanted to go to church, but I knew it was important so I did it. Some months are better than others, but I am okay with that. I am trying, and that is the only thing that I can be perfect at.

Today was dynamite. Church was so awesome, and it was a Sunday that I am so glad that I went to church. It made me so grateful for being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I relearned that no matter what other people say, I am a Daughter of God and I am important. I matter to him, and I will never be able to comprehend how much he loves and values me.

Sunday's are a type of harbor for me. They are the day when I don't have to worry about the not so great aspects of my life, I get to ficus on improving myself and pondering things that sometimes get pushed to the back burner during the week. Today I decided to watch quite a few Mormon Messages, and I have been uplifted. One that has been my favorite since it came out is called Our True Identity by Elder Dieter F. Uchtdorf
Here it is:
Our True Identity .

It is a reminder that our Heavenly Father loves us, and that we are worth so much more than we can ever even know. And it may take a while for us to realize that, but when we do it changes us for the better. This is the one that I turn to when I am feeling down, and I need a reminder that I am a swan. I went through times that I wasn't sure who I was, but now I have started to figure it out.

This whole sharing my beliefs on social media is something that is new to me. I don't want to seem pushy or anything, but we have been informed that this is the most influential way to spread the gospel, so I'm giving it a valiant attempt. So here it is, by view of Sundays and what I was reminded it for myself today.