Hello blog! So, a lot has happened since I wrote last on here. On May 9th I opened my mission call - Tennessee Knoxville Mission. I was (and am) really excited to go on a mission and serve the Lord. As soon as I opened the call, and it will be awesome.
Here comes the problem. There's this guy. And here's some background: Since I started my mission papers, I knew that I was NOT even kind of opposed to getting married instead of going on a mission. I was almost hoping that I would meet someone and my life would change because they're in it. So a while back, I don't remember the day, these guys came to our apartment and we watched Emperor's New Groove, we were supposed to watch Enchanted but this guy named Cory din't want to watch it. So we changed the movie and I was sitting on our love seat with this guy named Jake. At first I thought it was weird, that I was sitting on a couch with someone I didn't know. So a week later they came over again and Cory was really loud. And I was wanting to talk to Jake but I couldn't really find an opportunity because Cory was talking nearly nonstop. So I decided then that I wanted to hang out with Jake without Cory around so I could get to know him better. So some other time we went to the hot tub and pool and it was really fun. This last week they came over and watched a movie and I was one again on the small couch with Jake, except I actually wanted to be there. A couple days after that, Jake invited me to go over to their house and play video game, and we ended up watching When in Rome back at my apartment - kind of alone. And this was when we first held hands and cuddled--WHAT?!?! I know, and it was really nice and not too awkward. So over the next couple of days, we kept hanging out and cuddled every time. And I was loving it, I'e never been a cuddly kind of girl, but there's just something about him. So Saturday (yesterday) was when everything turned on it's head. I went over and there was another girl there, and it seemed like he was sitting closer to her, so I was kinda bummed. But in the end I won, and we ended up cuddling hardcore, but not inappropriate. During the second movie Ty walked in and saw us on the couch, and I didn't really care. So later, we were on the couch still and we'd gradually gotten our faces closer to each other, and HE KISSED ME. Seriously, and it wasn't very awkward. Of course it was, because first kisses are, but still good. So, yeah, that happened. So today, Sunday, we didn't talk at all at church. Later, we went on a walk, sat and talked for 2 hours and then kissed for a little bit. When I got back, I was bummed because I thought I had ruined something and I wouldn't see him anymore. So after some deliberation, I decided that I needed to tell him that I like him, and that my mission isn't as important as getting into a relationship if it is the right thing to do. So I told him that I like him. And we decided that friends is a good medium because he doesn't want to get into something if it isn't going to go anywhere.
Truth. I really like him. The more I get to know him, the more I like. He is cute, and funny, and he makes me feel like myself, and he is every so slightly awkward. We can just talk and talk for hours, and I feel pretty at ease with him. And it is scary, because I even told my mom about him. Now, don't take this as I want to marry him right now, because that isn't the case. I just think that we could make a relationship work, even if only for a while. I'm in such a pickle... He's really great, and he isn't interested in a relationship right now.
Over the day, I was thinking of little things that make a difference even when they're small. And I thought of my mission papers. If I hadn't put in my papers, I wouldn't have stayed at Glenwood, I would have moved. So by the fact that I didn't move made it possible that i met him, and I couldn't be very much happier.
I'm content.
