Communication

Over the weekend I learned something very important. Communication is VITAL in any relationship  - no matter what type.

I wrote a post about Nakai a few days ago, and things have vastly changed since then. On Friday night he came over and hung out and it was fun. On Saturday it was a very busy day, and that evening was Stake Conference. Afterward, my roommate said that she was going to go get some caffeine. That was only part of the truth, sure, she did go get a Coke, but the real reason that she left was so that she could go hang out with Nakai. This pissed me off - not the fact that she was hanging out with him, but the fact that she lied to do it.

So I was SO freaking mad at her. When I went to bed, I expected to be woken up at some unholy hour of her coming back. Nope, didn't happen. I woke up at like 4:45 and looked over at her bed and she wasn't there. So I texted her, wondering where she was - out in the hallway. At 5 o'clock in the morning. I was absolutely furious.

So I pretended to be happy and all that but I have pretty perceptive roommates and they caught on. I vented and got some things figured out in myself. Later, there was a fireside and Alyssa came and I decided to ride with her. We talked a little about what had happened, and I was mad again because she said that she knew that it would make me mad and that she regretted lying. So a little later she gets a text from him and asked if she said something to me, and she responded with no, I'm just smart. And this is something that many people don't realize, I see alot and I am relatively good at deduction.

I also received a text from him and I told him not to text me. I had to explain why, which was very painful. I pretty much told him that I like him, and being friends with him isn't going to help that. He also told me straight out that he doesn't like me in a romantic way (which I am fine with, if he hadn't been so confusing about whether or not he liked me). So that got out of the way, and I think that maybe with time we may be friends again, but for now I am going to try and not be around him because my heart still hurts, and I really don't want to deal with that right now.

Now to the important part, which I learned from my roommates with this whole fiasco. I was planning on just not talking to her for a few days, hoping that it would solve itself. That is not the case. Bethany pointed out that doing that wouldn't do any good in the long run, just cause unhappiness. Once we were able to talk about it, and I was able to hear her side of what happened, and she was able to hear mine I realized that I wan't mad at Alyssa. I was mad at Nakai and she just got put in the middle of it (well, she kind of put herself there). So, yes, a very painful but important lesson in communication.