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So I am at a turning point. I have started to fill out my mission papers -- SCREAMING! As soon as I started to do them, i realized that I do like someone, and it's someone I didn't plan on liking as anything other than a friend. This is weird, when you see someone as a friend one day and the next you look at them and it's almost like everything has changed. 

And right as I decide that I want to maybe do something with one guy, another one makes himself known and he's really great too. 

Today I was in a funk because the guy that I've admitted to myself that I like isn't interested (believe me, we've talked about it). It's hard because we're such good friends and I tell him pretty much everything, except this. I don't know how to tell him that I like him without ruining our friendship, so bleh. I just don't know what the freak to do anymore.

But it's okay because the Lord knows what he's doing, and I don't. So I'm choosing to trust him, not myself.